Initial goal: daily 5k. Immediate mental pushback: seriously, when are you going to fit that in? 3 miles? Are you sure? Do you really have the time to commit to that every day? Also, it's getting cold and Blink is packed on evenings. How early do you want to wake up, seriously?
Revised to: 30 minute run. Monologue: Hmm, maybe, but still a tricky one to fit in - not easy to do a lunchtime run and still be back in an hour.
End result: 20 minute run. Monologue: Okay, this isn't wildly ambitious. This could work. Let's do that.
There were other thoughts. Like: you haven't run a decent 5k in weeks! Months, even! Why not start smaller?
Which was, for me, an interesting departure from my usual approach - go big, all-in, buy all the gear. book all the classes, DO ALL THE THINGS.
Because I've come to realize that I don't want to do all the things, and crucially, I no longer care about maintaining the appearance thereof.
But I do want to meditate. I want to practice yoga every day. I want to spend more time with friends and family. I want to get through that pile of books and magazines and articles to which I add almost daily. I want to write more. I want to fall asleep to the sound of waves crashing on tropical beaches. I want to make contributions that are bigger than me.
And when I look at my schedule and I can't fit in a yoga practice because I've scheduled a 7.30am breakfast meeting and am attending an 8pm Skillshare session, I realize I am doing it wrong.
Do less, do better. Be better.